I feel like cursed man, I've been single for exactly 10 years this year. The thing is I really like women in fact I love all sexy ladies. I really want to have sex much as I can and I'm willing to treat them/her nice and want to show respect. I'm doing it but like I always pay for everything, I listen to what they have to say and what they wanna do and what do I get I gain nothing. Just makes me tired.

Anyways I kept in touch with first girl Yuka who contaced me from Tokyo Notice Board brochure. Over a week we are e-mailing and I knew she's kind of weird cos she asked me many strange questions like what I think of religion etc. And I dislike religion. I have no faith. If I had to do it I probably take up christianity or become a jewish. Anyways we decided to exchange mobile phone number and I called her and we hooked up just now. 8th of Jan 6 o'clock at Shinjuku south exit. She speaks too fast and I don't know what a hell she's talking about. I kinda presumed she might be a right old minging girl but not that bad as I thought. bit embarrassing though. She had head scarf and she saids she's half muslim and buddhist. I wanted to go to Ikkyu Japanese style pub but she said she wants to eat curry so we went to same old curry place called Samrat.

We had really crazy conversations with rapid subject changes and most of it doesn't make much sense. And of course I had to pay again! She ain't my f**king bird! She reckons she's a Iranian or Persian whatever she prefers but all I think of her is she's a Japanese 26 years old woman. She said she's quater and in Iran men pays for everything when they take out. Hello but this is not IRAN for christ sake.

So we headed to Hub and I had pint of Guinness and again I payed. I'll never see her again cos she's mental and one of the most weirdest person I met.

So I got back home after getting me self a perfume. Never heard of Jeanne Arthes but apparently this is number 1 perfume for the Japanese geezers. It smells alright. When I was in England I always bought Adidas or Fabergé Lynx deodorant stuff.

Japanese deodorant is really shit and never smells well and not long lasting and crap. Hair jell is top class though.

I spoke to Pierre my mate from Sainsbury's and he reckones that I should put some brutal ad like who wants to gape! Yeah right! That's too honest even if I'd love to try anal sex!

Anyways he also said when you are not looking they suddenly appears. In my case even if I'm not looking they won't come to me. Which sucks... Decade of no girl friend and no shagg has been tough. Maybe I should cut my cock off...

I'm getting very desperate.

Gottas shoot off...